Kermits look on life

[Neg]

If you try to make the most out of yourself, it's hard to stay in one place for a longer time (track record of relationships is exempplary for this, lol). Also if you are multitalented it's hard to shift and make lasting choices. I always jump from one thing into the other, never knowing where it will lead or where I will end up the next day. At the moment I'm studying Chinese Medicine, next to teaching and making lots of music. Which, come to speak of it, is really promising at the moment. I'm getting a lot of offers for sound-engineering, of which the latest is in cooperation whith an alledgedly very famous NY house producer. Heck if I know the fucker, but incrowd Dj's told me he's the bomb at the mo.I've been asked to do vocal recordings of DJ Zubrovka (who incidentally looks like a replica of Nina Hagen), which he will further produce into killer dance tracks in NY. That's quite interesting. Other than that I got the budget Ok from my boss, so that as of januari I will give a course in harddisk recording for some of my pupils. This has never been done at my school before, next to playing Cs in class lol... I can order the hardware this week, and, I wonder at which site the lot will be tested over X-mas holidays (HOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMEEEEEEE!!!), including a ferocious new beamer (CS BIG SCREEN!!!).
Next to that me and my drummer friend are setting up an act together with electronics and live instruments and we've been invited to numerous parties already (And we still have fokall, lol). Oh yeah, and on monday it's rental studio time, just jamming with whoever wants to play. On tuesday I have been invited to do live mixing for a band, but I still have to check this and see if I like that. This thursday I have been invited into Antwerp where Zubrovka plays, and I go along as her soundengineer (hotelroom and all, lmao, little to engineer, prolly end up carrying her vinyl...)
I wonder how I keep up with all this, but for the most part it's just going about my business and not plan ahead too much. I live by the day and it seems to work best in hectic times. If i rely on an agenda I only get stressed so fuck it.
I still manage quality time with my kids. People always wonder how I keep my sanity and get things done, but it seems that I have a magical relationship with Time. I'm inclined to think that I get this all done because I don't care about the money or the organisation. I'm very un-"professional" and rather not follow trodden paths. This is sometimes very confronting for my colleagues, but the fun part is that I get everything done they can only dream of in a million years. Pisses em off at times, mind you... They follow rules and regulations, I work on my senses and intuitions, on whatever level necessary. Works better for me but leaves em puzzled for the most part, lol...
People always tell me that I never consolidate anything. But consolidation is the other pole of change, and to me is not one or the other. I consolidate who I am and in the changes I'm going through, that's my dynamics. What people usually refer to as consolidation is in terms of material conditions. To me that's just temporal and nothing I would bring to the afterlife. Thus not worth pursuing. I want to breathe life and enjoy it to the fullest. Having said that, I also come across the worst tragedies for the very same reasons. Now that's abundance to me, other than that I always feel taken care of in a material sense. In some uncanny way it just pops up, even in the middle of crisis (happend after my split up with Claudia again, house fell from the skies, which is EXACTLY fitting for me.
It's just a matter of trust, open up to what providence wants for you. And follow the signals, most people ignore that cause they do not believe in magic anymore...

I was reall impressed with wot kermit put he really explained stuff there, well done!

[Lankinator]

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